Did you know the finality of the words you spoke Through gnashing teeth While coughing up blood From a hardened heart Convinced my sentiment a hoax? Was the irony lost When you cut off the kite string that allowed you to fly And then vanished on foot? Desperation held the search party. I sucked in a breath of cold air Bitter realization stole my soul As my fate became sealed in the ritual of my own self denial Intestines turning green Master of self destruction I tried it all, why wouldn’t I? And all the while you made a mockery of my descent like it was done by design After a year, still no reply Same after five Ten years ago you disappeared And I could only decipher why From pieces of memory memorized by a mind in shock and dread The one thing you repeatedly said Was that I couldn’t be trusted to stay Would you admit that you were wrong in the end? That you were taking revenge on a misconception. Could you comprehend yet that I actually meant What I told you back then Would you still be content If you knew that I spent ten years while expectantly Waiting to hear your words spoken again.